We’re almost to tech. There’s so much work that’s happened in the past two weeks it feels like both a sprint and a marathon.
There’s an actor in the cast who I’ve admired for longer than I’ve known him. The first time I worked with him I secretly hoped to learn something about his process, because he’s so talented and so interesting on stage. I watched him work, I watched him try different things, and then one day—BOOM. He seemed to be there, miles from where he had just been. I didn’t know how it happened. I didn’t learned a thing, and he makes it look so easy.
At last night’s run-through there was a flash of a moment where I realized he just did that again.
As for me, I was feeling fairly good a couple days ago. I had found new tiny details of discovery in many places, and felt I had fleshed out my work. But between last night and tonight I think I’ve discovered that once it becomes comfortable—read as: I know what I’m doing here, I can stop working—I suddenly feel very two dimension. I find myself making easy choices, obvious thoughts, occasionally getting distracted, and then….I realize I’m thinking about that, so clearly I’m not listening to the others on stage and my work has become crap.
This is not good. This, however, is fixable.
Goals. Risks. Reaction. Listening.
I just need to put it back together. It’s all there.
In other news – the boots the costumer has given me are awesome!
Next up is tech.